Lesson in the morning was un-concentratable unlike usual, but like the past.
Was pondering about some issues, keep flashing across my head.
Juggling between what the teacher was saying and what i was thinking was hell.
Thus i headache and keep hitting head ==

Blah, blah..till after sch.
I stayed back in class.
Oh, and great, i just realised i forgot to go for badminton training.
Intended to go take attendance de..sian.
Staying back was quite happy and quite a test of tolerance.

Now at home.
I never though i would cause such an effect to people, especially to people i really do not intentionally wish to hurt. I never hated people except maybe some guys on occasion. But i swear i have never hated one particular person. You are who you are, i should only hate myself.
Like geog says, controlling food production is easier then controlling human population. Thus, i hate myself at times instead of hating others. I find no point in hating others..i wish for a world of peace, of love, caring..it would be such a beautiful place to live on..

Hmm after reading some blog in particular..I realised ppl in particular have thinking about the same as what i felt. The inferior complexity, The immense frustration, the jealousness at other's happiness, the feeling of hoping someone would be there when i was down, someone in particular..And that i once already have though, to be loved is a blessing, but being about to have someone to love is also a blessing, although it can be torturous at times.
Aiya, not sure what i saying at this point of sentence alrdy..dunno how to express in words..

Okay, not sure what i wish to say riaos, peace out , for the hope of a better world, a better place, a better life!!!