10.15pm-
Just came back from SGH..
My Grandma just passed away at about 7 pm..
I was at home playing at 5+..
I wanted to visit her at about 7+..
I did not know..the nurse told my sister that it was not serious..and yesterday no one could bring me there..so i though today i go would be alright..but little did i expect...
I feel guilty to my grandma..as her grandson..i did not communicate to her much..but i and my sis are the grandchild that communicate with her most i suppose..
When i was small, about 5YO and younger i supposed, i often visit her with my mother and sister..her block at Tanjong Pajar block 54..
She always talk dialect as she was not educated, and she was a cheerful person...
I always could just listen and look at her as i do know know how to reply...
She would give me red packet or sweets and smile at me and talk to me (:...
When i was about 12 YO, I started to use dialect as i hear them far too often..
Occasionally, my grandmother would come to my house and visit my mother which is her daughter to talk to her..but i was mostly in school or outside..cause she comes in the morning or early afternoon by cab...i really miss her talking...T_T...
The last time i saw her was maybe about 1 year ago..maybe more..:(...
I could communicate to her abit..but not much..
Just now at about 7pm..my 1st Uncle called me and looked for my mother..then i found out my grandma just passed away..
I stoned and cried..then hanged after awhile..i quickly turned and told my sister and we both rushed and cabbed to SGH..
Upon arrival, checks then we went up..
My sister and i stood outside and dared not go in..
My sister told me to go in see her..as i did not visted her yesterday when they visited..
I went in and saw her..she was thin and looked fragile..with a breathing tool attached to her mouth...my sister told me she was afraid of the pains in needle..she moaned in the afternoon..i cried immediately..i am so guilty..i cry over what is lost..
yesterday no one could take me to visit..hais..zzzzzz T_T
Then later on..my sis and i looked at her..i stood there for about 1 hour..taking every precious moment to take the last sight of her..while my sister called my uncles and mother asking them certain things..
Then about 8.30 the 2 guy with the pushing thing came to collect her body to the forensic?
I stood and waited outside..the body was push away in in the pushing thing..under a cover..
Then i could not see her anymore..as she was pushed away..
I walked home with my sister very sadly..with reminisces of her..of the past..
Now i feel so lost..i really want to talk to her..i hope she finds me..i really really wished to communicate with her..
When my father's mother passed away, my family all heard her singing, cause she liked singing...it was to show that she was back to see the family..
I Hope my grandma does visit us..
I am sorry grandma..you could not see me before you went off..i did not know..im sorry..
REST IN PEACE GRANDMA, I WILL DO MY BEST TO REMEMBER ALL ABOUT YOU, TILL I DEPART AND MEET YOU!

*Life is like a road we travel. Some are smooth, Some are rough, whereas theres some we rather not forget. People come and people go..do not greive till they are really gone..treasure them while they are still existing..If not there could not be chances anymore..*