Nowadays i seem to go in a trance
Wednesday, June 29, 2011, 7:39 AM
Just read Xiaxue's blog, really interesting.
Yup, you can't trust someone completely, better to be safe than sorry.
I believe i can't be trusted either.
Not because i know i am not trustable, but i believe i can be tempted and do mistakes.

Was also thinking about "Am i a hongster?"
What exactly is defined hongster?
Being a flirt with girls?
But what about being nice to girls.
Just friends, but showing care and saying nice stuffs.
Well yes, i do those. But i don't think i am a hongster?
Of course i know the extent of the words i am able to say.
I do praise them about their looks if they feel down.
I do speak nicely to girls.
I respect girls more than guys.
Because most guys likes to be guailan to me. At least for my secondary school friends.
As for the minority of the guys, i'm just nice, but i don't over do it because it just, feels too much.
Guys can fend for themselves, if they need help, of course i would surely help.
Else, nah.
I really feel that i am not crossing the limits of being nice to girl, stepping into the boundary of being a hongster.
Why am i being said a hongster, and why is my first impression a hongster.
Sigh.
Ever since i have been constantly said, i have been talking lesser and lesser to all girls except one.
I have thus feel rather, bad.
But i need to ventilate the air around me.
I'm starting to feel like a hassle to talk to much to other girls because i don't want to be deemed hongster.

Oh, and one more thing.
I really need to be less shy.
You may think that i am a daring person, why would i be shy.
But i am shy. At least, for relationship stuffs.
And i feel like a useless bum.

Whew, really tired today.
I should sleep by 1am.